Self Sabotaging

By Narelle Monteleone

This morning I was inspired to write - to write something specifically for those of you who might not be feeling they are exactly where they wish to be or where they 'think' they should be. Does this sound like you? If so, read on......

It's true that we can be our own worst enemy when it comes to creating the life we crave. We honestly get in our own way so often and we do it without even realising we are most of the time. You might be wondering what I am talking about, however if you are someone who keeps banging their head against a brick wall, wondering why things aren't working out in your favour then you probably have an inkling that you could be sabotaging your own happiness.

If you have been trying to manifest (insert said desire here) and it simply is not happening, it is time my friend to take a step back and really consider where in your life feels misaligned. If you have been following my content then you know by now that I am all about the energetics and how they affect every single aspect of our existence. We are energy, everything is energy and that being said, our energy affects others, just as the energy of others has an affect upon us. So then, if we are wishing to create a certain experience or bring something into our life and we have used all the known manifestation techniqes to no avail - (crystal grids, vision boards, visualisation etc etc), WE just might be the one preventing it. That can be a hard pill to swallow but its a reality check that we each need to be reminded of sometimes. Accepting that we might possibly be a part of the problem isn't easy to take on board for some people, but lets own it and move on.

I'm going to ask you to stop for a moment and ask yourself the big question....."Is what I am trying to manifest what I TRULY want?" This is a key factor because if you are trying to manifest a job for example that you want because you feel it will impress your family and friends due to the prestige and high pay check that comes along with it, but it does not align with your soul's desire for you to use your energy for something that fulfills you and gives you a sense of joy and purpose then no matter how hard you try to make it happen, it simply wont happen OR it might, but will you be happy? Chances are, overtime you will become resentful toward the job, the people you were trying to impress and you will beat yourself up for allowing it to happen and for not being true to yourself.

One of the great things about energy work is that you learn to pick up on the signs and symbols through your spiritual senses or clair senses that let you know if you are on the right track or not, and when it might be time to step onto a new path and go in a different direction. It doesn't mean you failed at your attempts, it just means that there was a lesson in that experience for you and that listening more to your intuition to lead you, rather than your ego mind will benefit you in coming into alignment with the mission you came here to fulfill.

Another common reason our wishes do not manifest is through our thoughts and belief systems dictating how worthy we feel we are of receiving what we are attempting to bring into our world. If we have not yet done any healing on ourselves, allowed ourselves the opportunity to self reflect and work on our shadow then we might be implementing manifesting techniques 24/7, however our emotions, our mind, our body is saying 'NO, NO, NO', YOU AREN'T GOOD ENOUGH! If we do not love ourselves then no amount of time and energy spent on manifesting our dreams will ever be enough. Energy flows where we place our attention and what we focus on grows, whether it be positive or negative. If you want a thriving business but you don't feel you deserve the rewards of having a thriving business, it will be tough to get it off the ground. If your dream is to travel the world but you keep coming up with reasons not to go then again, it wont be easy. If you are wishing to draw your soul mate partner toward you but dont feel worthy of being loved then you may find yourself attracting partners that reinforce your unworthiness patterns. It is true that we must first love ourselves before we can have a deep loving connection with another.

Our mind is constantly coming up with narratives based on our past experiences, what our parents and teachers told us and what we have seen played over and over again on TV. Realising that we have all been part of a program that was designed to keep us down and in a state of amnesia is a major realisation that occurs as part of the awakening of our planet and a vital component in the healing of Mother Earth. If you are currently going through the Awakening process and need some support checkout my Online Course Awaken your Inner Mystic. If you need some 1:1 support you can find that here.

Know that whatever your experience, it has shaped your reality, however, change is a guaranteed constant in the human experience so you CAN make changes that support you in approaching life through a new set of eyes, that is self guided and lived from the heart space. This is where your true power lies and it will never lead you in the wrong direction. When you start to appreciate yourself for who you truly are and let yourself off the hook for any past experiences you had that kept you spiralling through negative emotions of guilt and shame and start to forgive, then that's when the magic happens. Your life will take shape in new and exciting ways so it is so worth stepping onto the path of self healing and spiritual development.

If you are unsure how to begin self healing there are so many different modalities and techniques you can explore. Meditation was my gateway into other healing modalities and I still use Meditation daily. From Meditation I was drawn to help others in some way so I found Reiki and I became a Reiki Practitioner. Energy Healing is an amazing tool to have on hand and you have it for life once you are attuned. If this speaks to you then you can checkout my availability for Reiki Attunements. Go where you are led and you will be acting upon your intuition rather than your mind. Your soul is leading you where you need to be but listening is the key. To listen more clearly, meditate or do breathwork. Get creative and immerse yourself in the present moment. There are so many treasures to be found when you clear the clutter of your mind, your space and simply breathe and give back to yourself. Through these practices you will come into a space of gratitude and self love and THAT is the energy for manifesting your best life yet!!

Until I learned about intuition, meditation, healing and channeling I was truly in the dark about spirituality and the benefits that we can derive from implementing regular practices into our lives. I can say from personal experience that just one simple practice daily can create a huge shift in your life and it doesn't need to take much time or effort on your part. It will however create a ripple effect that helps not only you but the world and if we each did just one small thing consistently, just imagine how this could reshape the world we are living in right now into much higher levels of love and peace. This is what we each want on a soul level and it is the reason we are each here at this time. We are here to support humanity to awaken, to shine and to overcome adversity, so take the time, follow your heart and know you ARE worthy of love and all the things that you aspire to be.

Keep going beautiful!

Sending love and Blessings

Narelle X

Narelle Monteleone is a Spiritual Teacher, Reiki Master, Channel and Healer supporting Lightworkers and Starseeds through Activations, Teachings, Retreats and Courses. Narelle has a Diploma in Holistic Counselling and Emotional Freedom Technique, Flower Essence Certification, BQH Certification and provides Sessions including Oracle Card Readings, Akashic Records Readings and Energy Healing Sessions and Light Language Activations.